Getting to the Root
You can learn parenting techniques. You can practice calming strategies when you're triggered. You can read books about gentle discipline. Those tools help you get through difficult moments. But they don't address why your three-year-old's screaming makes you feel like you're in danger, or why certain behaviors from your kids make you rage when you know they're developmentally normal, or why you can't stop second-guessing every parenting choice you make.
Your childhood taught you how to survive abuse, not how to parent through it. The messages you absorbed about control, punishment, emotion, and safety run deep. When your kids trigger you, what's happening isn't just about their behavior. You're responding to old patterns that got wired in when you were the one being hurt. Understanding what those patterns are and where they came from changes how you parent.